NOT QUITE BURIED MEMORIES

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A silent interrogation, she sat impassive playing schtum

‘They’ offered her a cigarette, she pointed toward the chewing gum

‘They’ placed a loaded gun across the table, there were no words left to say

She retrieved it, murmured foul obscenities, then she blew her brains away 

An unconvincing protagonist, he was likely the last to know of her fate. Read her obituary quite by chance, sat alone thumbing through the café owners copy of The Times. He rarely sought out the obituaries.  Given the foul weather, no point in checking the runners and riders, all the race meetings across length and breadth of the country had been abandoned, that, coupled with the fact that politicians, murderers and natural disasters seemed to have been at rest the previous day, meant there was little else of possible distraction.

It took another Expresso in order to refresh his memory, well, that was his excuse. In truth he needed a moment to devour not quite buried memories.   He could visualize her plain as day; her catalogue of smiles for each and every occasion that compensated for coldest blue eyes that rarely spoke, bleached blond hair that hinted at her roots in more ways than one; the exclusive taste of her kiss; every last supernatural inch of her body and yes, her merciless intolerance of fools. Echoes and visions of a long since erstwhile lover as crystal clear as the tears he would save for the privacy of the fireside.

A brace of superpowers and a most ladylike assassin who would play Cold War games with both KGB and MI5. The fact that it was an intoxicatingly risky business and, of course, one of financial gain, her only motivation. ‘She made love with such notions in mind also’, a wry smile induced of passing thought.

Back home, by the time his fourth cognac frazzled his brain, common sense loosened its grip and finally set him free, flashbacks flooding in as if rising waters to the Lock at Teddington quite near to where he lived, as he recalled their first pairing.  Buenos Aires, not long after the end of the war. He, in union with Mossad agents hunting down the Nazi, Josef Mengele, she, although never disclosing her paymaster, also. With the British Ambassador out playing polo, the marble floor of his office at the British Embassy a unique, yet enticingly risqué spot for bluest intimacy and to get the taste for more of the same…she never did find that misplaced diamond earring. With regret, and a little shame he reflects that their subsequent perpetual night and day carnal escapades played some part in neither of them ever tracking down the Angel of Death.

From there on, sometimes of common purpose, other times in direct competition their relationship cemented across the great cities, London, Paris, New York, Rome, Moscow and Prague. He recalls she had, on the back page of her diary, a map of the world upon which she ‘ticked’ off the places they had revelled in each other’s ‘company’. Their list of cloak and dagger rendezvous read like the labels on an old cabin trunk. One thing was for certain though, whatever ‘love’ there may have been, was always one always left unsaid. Indeed, he knew there was a genuine love of sorts twixt the pair of them, yet for reasons self-evident a thing that could never be an open secret.

The last time they met? Easy, the memory a daily preoccupation if the truth be told. Checkpoint Charlie, Berlin, a freezing fog night, November 1961. Bear hugs and kisses to a backdrop of floodlights and incandescent torches. It was then, as she reluctantly detached herself, in order to head off east of the Wall, she had told him she had an assignment in Texas; Dallas to be precise and might be off the radar for some time. It had not taken him too long to establish her likely target. All these years gone, he thought she had got away with it. Plainly not the case. Regardless, he had seen neither hide nor hair of her since that night. He had often wondered why the fall guy? Just who had authorized, and the motive for that particular ‘hit’.

She played the long game with the Soviets, preferred ‘kiss and tell’ for passé MI5

Spoke of just ‘this and that’ with the Americans, yet for nearly two decades she stayed alive

He was minded to attend her funeral in Vienna. In the event he thought better of that idea.

 

 

 

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70 thoughts on “NOT QUITE BURIED MEMORIES

      1. I remember one time, an age ago when after 12 months fag free if one had offered me I night of lust with the young Brigitte Bardot or a Marlboro I would have opted for the latter…pathetic really.

      2. ‘Last Night on Earth’ by Noah & The Whale is rather good…End of the world activities as opposed to dropping dead without it being Armageddon poses a difficult choice as to what to do.

      3. My anger at the Brexit supporters will haunt me until the day I die…a bunch of closet racists; ‘in denial’ racists; actual racists the lot of them…I live in a land I no longer recognize; my free movement across Europe, European identity about to be stolen from me…blood pressure on the rise, best go head butt the outside wall for a bit to calm down!

      4. Fascinating…a thing I didn’t know in part or at all. A revision of current diet now including fish may well be in order as I don’t like eating anything with a face. Certainly getting a bit of B17 in me has helped massively…went through tests, tests and more tests over the weeks preceding what I thought was my impending departure. Even got back to best my 12k a day times on the cross trainer from over a decade ago. Thanks for that…appreciated.

  1. Ah, yes, the story of my life as you know I am a great international spy and mysterious woman of great resources and lovers across the globe. Good thing he didn’t attend my funeral as I might say, he’d probably have met with quite a few of them not to mention those who may have wanted him dead. As for myself, of course, I now reside in the South of France with my many lovers. You don’t actually think I would have blown my brains out, do you?

    1. A true story…I once attended the funeral of a gal who used to work for me. Tragically, she died far to young. The thing was at the church at least a dozen of her lover’s were there each eyeing the others with intent of violence clearly on their minds. Many assumed I counted among their number but that was not the case!

      1. Truly I was innocent of any carnal crimes…she was my assistant manager and an Englishman would never even think of anything untoward…most of the time at any rate!

      1. I need the Time Lords to grant me extra time during this period where I feel like I’m buzzing (quality subjective as ever). Sons online business is about 6 weeks from launch; house needs me marshalling people who ‘do things’ and book needs me not a vacant depressive, but a positive ‘may as well give it my best shot’ would be writer. Yet thanks, as ever you inspire others trying to do what you have done. Cheers young Ms S.

      2. Your best shot will be brilliant. I see you have plenty going on BUT tuck this idea here away for future use. You have created a wonderful scenario and the characterisation is brilliant.

  2. my favorite genre – done up with your customarily fine characterizations – reminds me that I enjoyed the London Olympics opening ceremonies much more than Rio’s, not least of all because of bit with Bess and Bond

    1. She’s waiting for the showers of rain to stop in order she can finish painting her ‘end garden shed’ young Rachel. We really must have a chat this weekend…miss your wisdom and your news from the New Lands young lady.

  3. When I first learned about Mata Hari I dreamed of being a spy like her. I wasn’t older than twelve at that time, but I still remember the longing for mystery and influence 🙂

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